(An older poem of mine)
Where is the love we once swore to crave?
Where is the trust we once swore we would never betray?
Where is the hope that shone so bright?
Where is the righteousness we said we would continue to grow into?
I am a rebel, I have always been one.
First loyalty was to hatred and pride
And then to become beautiful in His sight.
I felt a new blossom revive in my soul
I opened my eyes and yearned to be whole.
I said, “This is love
Love I must feel for all of these people.”
So I set out to make it my zeal.
I felt a growth
A pain and yet a sweet fragrance
You cannot grow without trial
And I said, “This is trust I am learning
I will trust the Lord always.”
So I set out to make Him my stronghold.
I saw a light far away in the sky
Not a star
Not the moon
And I said, “That is Jesus holding out hope
My crown is waiting, hold onto hope.”
So I moved on to follow the light.
I came to realize something awful
That I could do nothing good at all
And I said, “I need grace,
Grace to make me righteous like Him.”
So I set out to know Him more and to let Him lead my life to righteousness.
But where has this led me?
Where has it gone?
I allowed myself some pleasures
I allowed myself to conform to the world
I looked for love when God had not ordained it
I could find nothing when I wanted and so I did not trust
The hope, the light, was so far away that I decided I did not need to follow so faithfully
I found righteousness too hard so I gave up too easily
Lord, where has this brought me?
Where have I gone?
My heart has turned to bitterness
I hate my brother
I speak with him often, but little is fixed
What bitterness is in my soul
Where has it come from?
From the world I follow in
From not loving in the correct way
From not following the Lord’s ways
From giving up on hope and righteousness
Lord, teach me to love
I feel empty inside
Lord, teach me to trust
I betrayed You long ago
Lord, teach me to follow
The light of hope burns so small
Lord, fill me with grace
Lest I fail in the quest
Teach me to forgive my neighbor
Teach me to love my brother
Teach me, Lord
“For He has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son He loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” ~ Colossians 1:13-14
“Teach me, O LORD, to follow Your decrees; then I will keep them to the end. Give me understanding, and I will keep Your law and obey it with all my heart. Direct me in the path of Your commands for there I find delight. Turn my heart toward Your statutes and not toward selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to Your Word. Fulfill Your promise to Your servant so that You may be feared. Take away the disgrace I dread, for Your laws are good. How I long for Your precepts! Preserve my life in Your righteousness.” ~Psalm 119:33-40