Rekindle Desire

Pull up a chair

Let’s talk a moment

Tell me why

Your face is so grey

What makes your hands shake

And your eyes so downcast?

Tell me about

The love in your life.

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I will tell you

That I am afraid

I am afraid of looking you in the face.

I feel like I am

A freak that was made.

I feel like I should be a bird

With fire wings

Who ought to fly high in the sky!

But instead here I am

A crow

That everyone wishes would die

I am afraid to look

Because I may cry.

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So often I weep

And I am despised

And the love in my life

Never wears the same face.

I wake up in the morning

To a golden face

And in the afternoon I’m shivering

In death’s cold embrace

I want to love the LORD

For He is my God

But when the joy passes

I am trapped in façade

So I just hide away, despising myself

I stare at the white screen–

My head hurts

And reality bends to nothingness

And I reflect its meaning

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Have you read in Revelations?

The church that forgot its first love?

How does one remember

What has been lost?

How do you rekindle desire

When the world’s put it out?

How do you change

When you are so afraid of it?

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The LORD

He is The Way

The Truth

The Life

The LORD

Is The Light

Go to Him

And worship Him

In His Holy Mountain

He will restore to you

What you have lost

Do not give up

Go to The Stronghold

Do not give up

Go to Him

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1Vindicate me, my God,

and plead my cause

against an unfaithful nation.

Rescue me from those who are

deceitful and wicked.

2You are God my stronghold.

Why have you rejected me?

Why must I go about mourning,

oppressed by the enemy?

3Send me your light and your faithful care,

let them lead me;

let them bring me to your holy mountain,

to the place where you dwell.

4Then I will go to the altar of God,

to God, my joy and my delight.

I will praise you with the lyre,

O God, my God.

5Why, my soul, are you downcast?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise him,

my Savior and my God.” ~Psalm 43

19“Sir,” the woman said, “I can see that you are a prophet. 20Our ancestors worshiped on this mountain, but you Jews claim that the place where we must worship is in Jerusalem.”

21“Woman,” Jesus replied, “believe me, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 22You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”

25The woman said, “I know that Messiah” (called Christ) “is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us.”

26Then Jesus declared, “I, the one speaking to you—I am he.” ~John 4

My Same Old

New
I want something new
Not the same old
Same old
Not the same thing to do
Over and over
Tired of reading the Word
Only to sleep
And have to start again
Why should I pray again
If I have nothing new to say?
All over again
The same old
Same old
New
I want something new

But then the new comes
And with it chaos
Nothing steady
Nothing sure
Nothing real
Anymore
But then the new comes
And I feel numbed
I feel lost
I feel afraid
I bathe in this new lotion
And smell like a sewer
Because I didn’t want the old
Same old
New
I wanted something new

Test me Father
Know my heart
Try me and know my mind
Hear this voice of mine
Oh so small and insignificant
Know what unsatisfied feelings
I harbor deep within

New
When I forsook the new
And returned my face to the old
Same old
I tasted again the sweetness
Of the Word
And felt the joy it brought
When I returned to the same old
Same old
I found a sure foundation
I found You
And realized You had never
Never left my side
Though I am faithless
You are ever faithful
And for that I praise Your Name
He is my LORD
The One and Only GOD!
Praise Him!

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“1Keep me safe, my God,
for in you I take refuge.

2I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing.”
3I say of the holy people who are in the land,
“They are the noble ones in whom is all my delight.”
4Those who run after other gods will suffer more and more.
I will not pour out libations of blood to such gods
or take up their names on my lips.

5Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup;
you make my lot secure.
6The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.
7I will praise the Lord, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
8I keep my eyes always on the Lord.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.

9Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,
10because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
nor will you let your faithful one see decay.
11You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” ~Psalm 16

“8Remember Jesus Christ, raised from the dead, descended from David. This is my gospel, 9for which I am suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal. But God’s word is not chained. 10Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they too may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory.
11Here is a trustworthy saying:

If we died with him,
we will also live with him;
12if we endure,
we will also reign with him.
If we disown him,
he will also disown us;
13if we are faithless,
he remains faithful,
for he cannot disown himself.” ~ 2 Timothy 2

“22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.” ~James 1

My Insight

The day when change
Is forced upon you
Is the day when hard
Truths are learned
When joints are stretched
And muscles are grown
When endurance is tested
And perseverance sown
When love is made manifest
And faith is shown
This is the day
The LORD has made
I will rejoice
And be glad in it

“12Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed” 1 Peter 4

“2Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1